“What happens when I put my dreams and aspirations into action?”
That is the question I asked myself during the summer before my last year of University. I was finishing up a degree in Mathematics.
A degree I knew I probably would never use in my life but would spend my twenties paying off student debts. A degree I recklessly and haphazardly chose to pursue because my ex-boyfriend (then high school sweetheart) once told me, “I can’t marry someone without a University degree.”
I spent so much of my life doing what other people told me I should do… and for once in my life, I finally had the courage to do something I wanted to do.
My dream since 2007 was to start my own YouTube channel, but like many people, I was afraid to do so and kept putting off the idea.
In the summer of 2014 — 7 years of daydreaming later — I finally did it!
I started my YouTube channel. This is the first video I posted online… and as rambled as some of this video is to me now, I’m proud of my 19-year-old self for doing something she wanted to, even though it was scary.
I didn’t know it then… but this was the catalyst towards a life relentlessly in pursuit of creative freedom and expression, even though the journey is terrifying.
VIDEO TRANSCRIPT:
00:00:00
Let’s just have a real talk right now you me me you right now talking well more like me talking to you But real talks for real life like real life is approaching so close I’m actually going into my final year of university Which is really exciting because now I’m almost done it’s like so close you work so hard to just get this little piece of paper And then you’re free but It’s like with all this freedom that I’m going to get from being out of school. It’s like what do I do well? I’ve been thinking about it a lot and I think that I need to start chasing my dreams. And I need to start doing what I love to do, and then everything will kind of just fall into place, like I feel it in my bones.
00:00:52
It’s just I don’t actually do it. I’m a very ideas kind of person; I have all these ideas in my head, and they just stay there, so it’s like why not finally start doing these? Like why not if I only have this one life right now? I don’t know what happens after this life, so if this is my one shot, why not make the most of my life? Why not do what makes me happy and why not do what I love and why not do what? I’m passionate about and why not share it with the people I care about, just inspiring them to do the same, like, why there’s literally nothing holding me back from doing that. So I think it’s really important that I start learning from the real world and start just putting myself out there and start Start doing things now.
00:01:50
Now is my time. So yeah, I’ve just been surrounded by so many inspirational people – my family, my friends. I’ve been watching Shameless my hair like a lot, and I’m like, why not? Why not do it for myself? Well, first of all, what’s the point of living a life without doing what you want to do, and then second of all, what’s the point of doing what you want to do if you can’t share it with people? So it’s like, why not get the best of both worlds and do what you want to do and share it with people. It’s like… What? What? So this challenge thing is kind of going to be a mash-up of shameless Maya’s self-promotion experiment on one hand and then my personal growth and Doing what I love to do experiment on the other hand, and then we mesh it together.
00:02:52
And we’ll find something beautiful. I’m excited and scared because I don’t know I don’t know what’s going to happen. But I think I’m more excited than I am scared, so that’s good. I don’t really know where this channel is going to end up, but all I know is that if I Really stick to this and just do what I love to do. Oh, man. This is gonna be an exciting journey I’m already excited. It’s just the beginning, I’m already excited. It’s just the beginning, oh man! I’m kind of like scared but excited at the same time because now I’m accountable to actually do what I said I’m going to do. But it’s kind of scary, like I have all these ideas and you just put it off cuz life is too important.
00:03:48
But it’s like if I’m not doing what I love, what’s the point of my life? So if I really want my life to be worth it, I should actually be doing these things. So that’s what I’m gonna do now. So really exciting news I’m gonna challenge myself to post one YouTube video a week and I’m gonna make that start in September because I’m gonna be vacationing me and my family; we’re actually gonna go to the Philippines, so I’m just gonna soak in as much of the Philippines that I can and then just do all the post editing when I’m back. I think it’s gonna be such a great way to kind of jumpstart this experiment because the Philippines is such a beautiful country it’s kind of like going back to the roots, because I was born there, and I think this whole thing is really just gonna be a journey of learning, learning to be confident enough in myself to just do what I love to do.
00:04:50
So yeah, that’s kind of what I’m gonna be putting myself into let’s see how this goes! I’m so nervous but excited, so if you want to join me on this journey. Click the subscribe button and click the thumbs up if you’re just as excited/slash/scared as I am to go on with this journey and I’ll see you in the next video! Also, one last thing, if you can just share with me in the comments below what it is that you’re passionate about doing and what it is that you just love to do, and wish you could do. Because I love seeing people do what they love to do, and I think it just inspires me more. So let me know what you love to do; let me know what inspires you. Oh my, look at the time! I love you! I think it’s time for me to go and start doing what I love to do and start doing what I’m passionate about doing. Yeah. Yeah. Alrighty then. I’ll see you guys next time. I need to come up with a tagline, like ‘Do you boo is so good.’ Oh my gosh, if Seamus Mai ever watches this, I’m going to have a heart attack. I don’t know; I don’t know what I would do. Bam.
